Life has been...

My life has been quite hectic.  What with school, work (finally got a job), and homework. I don't seem to have enough time.  But That is alright I will eventually!!

Life has been amazing, even if I have my low moments but I don't mind I am used to them so I accept it and move on.

Things are going great with my boyfriend. I love him I really do. We hit 5 months earlier this week.  He is honestly everything I want in a guy. I am going to do my best to keep him....forever.I really do love him.  He is the only one that I have viewed as worth the risk. He has something different about him, which is a good thing, that none of the other guys who have asked me out had. I can see myself being with him for a long while or else I wouldn't have said yes at all. I threw all the things I stood by for a good portion of my years in school. Those being a. never date, b. to much drama goes with dating, c. not wanting to get hurt, d. tired of getting hurt, e. not taking risks.  But I am dating someone and I love him and I am taking those risks and throwing out all my little rules out the wall window.  This is kismet, well I think it is.

School has been chaos and causing me to stress.  Thankfully I can relax a little on my AP class. I should be graduating in May. I can't believe it this year has really gone by. I am just so surprised. May 23rd is when graduation happens and I am so excited, nervous, scared, happy....afraid. But all I can do is go with it now, it's not like I can do much else at this time.

All I can say is that my life is moving forward and I am scared shitless right now.  I just seem like the only one who doesn't seem to know what they are going to do. Everyone else seems to be figuring it out and I am so scared I am going to be left behind and in the dust. All alone and on the ground and everyone is going to leave me alone. But I have to push those thoughts away because I am not alone and no one is going to leave me, hopefully, and everything since the end of September early October seems to falling together.  I have gotten so lucky since I moved here. I am so glad I have the friends I have and my wonderful boyfriend. I have made my own little family, it may be small but I have all the people I need in it. Three amazing best girl friends, 2 great guy friends and my boyfriend. While I have people in the outlying circle, those six people are much more important to me now then those others are.

On another note I will still be underage when I graduate..everyone I know for the most part will be 18 or 19.

School ~ Chaos

School has been quite interesting.
I found out that if I fail (and most likely will from the looks of it) I should be able to graduate on time.  So says my guidance counselor.
My elective is AP European History and is a lot harder than I thought it would be. But I am going to do my best to pass the class anyways!
I am passing all of my other classes, which I do need to graduate.
SO far so good just have to do everything I can do to pass all these classes. Hamlet sucks by the way.  I hate it with a burning passion. My English teacher may be a good person but I don't think she makes the greatest teacher granted I would and will take her over the teacher I had for math my junior year.
I still fine my last block teacher (who I had for second block last semester) creepy as hell.
My first block teacher is a decent teacher, she seems to be rushing.
My third block teacher is an awesome teacher even if I suck at the subject.
I have been stressed out due to school and life and work.

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If all goes according to plan I will graduate May 23.. Damn....wow, so close yet so far away.