Life has been...

My life has been quite hectic.  What with school, work (finally got a job), and homework. I don't seem to have enough time.  But That is alright I will eventually!!

Life has been amazing, even if I have my low moments but I don't mind I am used to them so I accept it and move on.

Things are going great with my boyfriend. I love him I really do. We hit 5 months earlier this week.  He is honestly everything I want in a guy. I am going to do my best to keep him....forever.I really do love him.  He is the only one that I have viewed as worth the risk. He has something different about him, which is a good thing, that none of the other guys who have asked me out had. I can see myself being with him for a long while or else I wouldn't have said yes at all. I threw all the things I stood by for a good portion of my years in school. Those being a. never date, b. to much drama goes with dating, c. not wanting to get hurt, d. tired of getting hurt, e. not taking risks.  But I am dating someone and I love him and I am taking those risks and throwing out all my little rules out the wall window.  This is kismet, well I think it is.

School has been chaos and causing me to stress.  Thankfully I can relax a little on my AP class. I should be graduating in May. I can't believe it this year has really gone by. I am just so surprised. May 23rd is when graduation happens and I am so excited, nervous, scared, happy....afraid. But all I can do is go with it now, it's not like I can do much else at this time.

All I can say is that my life is moving forward and I am scared shitless right now.  I just seem like the only one who doesn't seem to know what they are going to do. Everyone else seems to be figuring it out and I am so scared I am going to be left behind and in the dust. All alone and on the ground and everyone is going to leave me alone. But I have to push those thoughts away because I am not alone and no one is going to leave me, hopefully, and everything since the end of September early October seems to falling together.  I have gotten so lucky since I moved here. I am so glad I have the friends I have and my wonderful boyfriend. I have made my own little family, it may be small but I have all the people I need in it. Three amazing best girl friends, 2 great guy friends and my boyfriend. While I have people in the outlying circle, those six people are much more important to me now then those others are.

On another note I will still be underage when I graduate..everyone I know for the most part will be 18 or 19.

School ~ Chaos

School has been quite interesting.
I found out that if I fail (and most likely will from the looks of it) I should be able to graduate on time.  So says my guidance counselor.
My elective is AP European History and is a lot harder than I thought it would be. But I am going to do my best to pass the class anyways!
I am passing all of my other classes, which I do need to graduate.
SO far so good just have to do everything I can do to pass all these classes. Hamlet sucks by the way.  I hate it with a burning passion. My English teacher may be a good person but I don't think she makes the greatest teacher granted I would and will take her over the teacher I had for math my junior year.
I still fine my last block teacher (who I had for second block last semester) creepy as hell.
My first block teacher is a decent teacher, she seems to be rushing.
My third block teacher is an awesome teacher even if I suck at the subject.
I have been stressed out due to school and life and work.

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If all goes according to plan I will graduate May 23.. Damn....wow, so close yet so far away.

School

Homework in all honesty is currently shitty!!!


I am so far behind with my AP European History homework it isn't even funny.  We are on chapter 17 and I still haven't been able to finish 14, 15, and 16.....and I have a test on 17 tomorrow....uuuggggh......


I am stressing out and I don't know how I am going to finish ass of these packets!!!


From the sounds of it my boyfriend is willing to help me, which I shall take him up on that offer....


I am passing all of my classes except for my AP class sadly....


I don't know how I feel about valentine's day being this Friday...I can't do anything for Zack and I wish I could.  Hell, I am still trying to figure out what to get him for his birthday.


I need sleep I really do and find a way to relax...

Harry Potter.

I do believe I may try and watch all the Harry Potter movies this weekend in 24 hours....

Emmy

So today my little sister was yelling at me...which was funny. She told me I didn't love anyone not one but my boyfriend (while that's true it is also wrong)...I told her she was wrong. I said that I loved everyone in this family. No matter what. I try not to be rude or get angry with them I try so hard to be better to them. I almost gave her a hug...would have if she hadn't been in timeout....

Sooo

It's been a semi long week.....I am tired. I just want to see my boyfriend...my home doesn't feel like a home but a house I live in....I don't like being home, I love being anywhere but here.

School is ok, like only one class right now and will only like one class.......

School and Dexter

Soooo, at this point in time I have grown weary of this one tv show...Dexter...I used to like it but then..my dad has watched the entire thing, well what they have on Netflix like 5 times. Now my sister is watching it!!!!




I hate most of my 4 classes already I can't deal with stupid ass people who think they are all that...I can't stand people like that. So I hate 3 of my classes because of them.. But I am liking my 3rd block class...